You`re ceratinly NOT mad. You have, somehow, been allowed to retain, from a past life, or given, in this life, the skills that all of humanity had at one time, and that all of us are capable of. Please, see this as a blessing not as a curse. Find a way to use it to help yourself, and then others.
Two people, I know of, that could help you are: Inelia Benz, and Deb Webber. Search for these people online; you can find them easily.
Contact them, like you did, me.
There is so very much to tell, and of course so much is very deliberately hidden from us, in order that we make one small mistake which can then be used to discredit our entire theory.
I know one other person who could probably help you. Keep in touch email me from here, if you like: http://www.transformtofreedom.com/contact/
I`d like to know more and give you better answers, when/if I can.
Take Care of yourself, first and then help us ALL to